♥ Godiva Rachel ♥

Rachel: “Hey World!”

World: “Watsssuppp?” (Budweiser ^^)

Rachel: “I’m In Love!”

World: “Since when?”

Rachel: “Since December 9, 2007; 11:45 PM.”

World: “Good for you! Tell us more about it!”

I’m in love with Edward. I’ve been waiting for the perfect time, the perfect feeling and the perfect moment to write a perfect post for my perfect boyfriend. Please do not argue to me the term “perfect” because I’ll fight the whole world to prove that he is. So dear World, please meet my darling boyfriend.

He’s the handsomest man I’ve ever met in my entire 20 years of life. He’s 38 and doesn’t look older than 24. You may say that his best feature is his perfectly oval face but for me its his beautiful and expressive eyes. He doesn’t have a thin lips that’s cold and cruel, instead he possess a full and kissable one. And its from that very same lips where wisdom, knowledge and inspiration comes forth. Oh, and how can I forget his hair? A classical prince charming type of air. And the best part of it is that I’m the only one allowed to run my fingers on it.

I must say that I love what I see in him. Oh, I can’t help it! Physically, I’m super attractive to him. From head to toe, side to side and front to back. And just when I thought he couldn’t get more perfect than he is now… he just gets perfect and perfect (don’t argue perfection to me! My Blog, My Rules!).

He drives to the point that drives me crazy in love with him. I use to freak out and shout… But I somehow learn to control it by saying to myself over and over again: “Oh god, if I die at least I die happy!” ^^ ok, I’m just kidding. (no not about the freaking part when he drives…) He’s the best driver in the whole wide world and I know he could handle even an F1 race car! (Trivia: He loves Audi)

The best cook in the world (my grandfather) had passed away. And by some magic, Edward came to my life and cooked for me a sunny-side-up egg just like my grandfather did. It may not show in tears, but I cry from happiness every time I eat those wonderful eggs. Of course, he could cook more than eggs! But that’s for me to know and you to find out! (Trivia: He doesn’t like “Adobong maraming patatas” because I said so!”)

The learns, he practice and he becomes the best. You may not know it yet but this handsome dude know Taekwondo and has already represented the Philippines in a competition. And now, he’s taking the extreme sport of Airsoft by storm. I could still remember the newbie Edward (no call sign yet) hide from hours and hours while other players kick ass in Tigerland. But now, <whistle> boy, he’s become a phenomenon! The most popular lonewolf in the Airsoft community that never fails to leave a memorable stunt or two every time he plays. Not only was he invited to an exclusive site (The Fortress) but also invited to join different groups! Sorry guys, but this ones staying with me. (Trivia: His call sign is Jaguar Paw taken from Apocalypto)

Now for the intimate stuff… hmm… Ok, I’ll try not to be TOO intimate… I might forget myself in the process (laugh). When he’s not stressed and is in the good mood he could make my heart beat so fast (we are 1 year and 5 months and I’m still kilig with him ^^), make me blush from the roots of my hair and make me cry from happiness that I wish I could give him my soul and say to him: “Take me! Take me!” (lol, in a decent way mind you! hmph!). But when the fighting starts, oh boy, its like the worst tempest you’ve ever encountered. But the really sweet thing happens AFTER the fight… when its now time to take me to his lap, wipe away me tears, kiss my hiccups away and joke about the icky stuff coming out of my nose (not a good sight to see or even imagine, so DON’T!). The rest of what happens, I’ll keep to myself. ^^

I must admit that 101% of fights were started by me. Of course its not about Jealousy! (Don’t argue with me, you’ll lose) I’m not the jealous type (this is my blog, so my rules!), in fact, NEVER EVER been jealous (ok I’m pushing it! ^^ lol) but you see, its when the “Rules of Feminism” breaks that I freak out. Its hard being a girl, because we HAVE to let our men understand these IMPORTANT rules that makes the female word go round (besides the make up, shoes, dress and diamonds). But believe me I won’t stand bitches flirting with MY boyfriend. All hell break lose if somebody tries to. (And I’m not joking ^^)

I’ll be posting a part 2 of this post soon, but before I close may I leave a short love note to my darling Edward if he gets a chance to read this:

My sweetest hubby Edward, I love you. I know you have heard me say it over and over again… but they were never empty words. Those three letter words is full of hope, happiness, trust, memories and faith. You’ve seen the best and worst in me. And I know I bring out the worst in you. And I love you more for that. You kept on telling me to trust you, that I don’t have to worry and do anything, but to trust you… But darling, I do… I already trust you. Everyday I trust to you my life, my heart, my hopes, my dreams and my future. I won’t stop protecting our relationship. I won’t stop taking care of you. I love you very much darling… my sweet and handsome Jaguar Paw…

Love,

Rachel (your Princess)

No matter how much we deny the fear of death we cannot deny the fact that we do not want to die yet. Just now, I realized I’m no longer afraid. Well, yesterday I was afraid or maybe an hour before I wrote this blog… But now, I feel that the fear was just suddenly blown away.

My grandfather died this year. But last December 2007 he was already suffering. That was the very first time I felt raw pain deed inside my heart. I didn’t know that losing someone you really love, someone who loves you back, the only man in your life that was sincere and pure will be this painful. I’ve cried and felt pain before… And I recovered. But now, I’m crying and feeling pain and I don’t want to recover. I don’t want to forget.

The only thing that somehow eases this hurt was the memory of taking care of my grandfather last December. I bet it was one of the happiest experience in his life… and mine too. I’m sorry I can’t type what happened because I can’t stop crying right now… But we shared good times. And I showered him all my love as a granddaughter and daughter could ever show.

I really thought he was getting well. But unfortunately God took him from me. No, God didn’t took him… My grandfather was His in the first place. I’m just really selfish. I just really thought I would graduate, be very rich and give my grandfather his own luxurious kitchen and lots of great grand children to take care of and tour him to different countries where he can sample all the great food some chef will make. He’s a chef too you know. And ever since I was a child he already cooks for us. It was always perfect, delicious and presentable.

My grandfather is very happy in Heaven now. There is no more pain, no more sadness and no more hurt. He’s with his mother and father and I know… I pray… He’s having the most wonderful and memorable time of his life… And he’s not regretting anything at all. I’ve had my shortcoming and maybe I’ll keep regretting all my life. But it doesn’t matter, I deserve it.

Right now I no longer fear death. Because I know that when I die and leave all my mortal senses here on earth, I’ll be with my grandfather. We will talk and be together again and maybe he’ll teach me now to cook… Because unfortunately I didn’t got his talent nor his beautiful prominent nose… and I love him dearly.

My grandfather is more than just a figure here in my blog. He’s alive and a vital part of me. And when I grow old and become a mother, I’ll name my first born son after him. Hopefully my future husband won’t mind. I know it will make my grandfather really really happy. And so, before I end this blog may I leave a message to my grandfather…

To my dearest grandfather Roberto C. Perez, I love you very very much. Someday we’ll be together and be one big family again. I miss you so much. I bet God’s very happy because you’re cooking really delicious food up there in Heaven. Imma as usual is the same but I know she miss you so much. Mommy’s cooking for us and I hope you heard what she whispered to you before. I bet that made you shed tears. My brothers and Noah are getting matured now. Cha Cha is in Guam with Tita Ruby. I guess our family’s falling apart now… It makes me really sad. Tita Olen and Tita Sed misses you so much. Thank you for finally visiting Tita Olen in her dreams. That made her really happy. I guess I’ll be seeing you soon Tatay. Don’t forget to visit me in my dreams. Your grand daughter who loves you truly, Rachel